curling up in places too small for you and closing your eyes for just one more minute.
writing papers at midnight and then being horrified at your incomprehensible “logic” the next morning.
constantly wondering why your coffee cup is empty but not having the motivation to refill it.
spending your hard-earned cash on ice cream because your professors make you cry.
always just wanting to lay down on the floor.
generally wanting to lay down in general because you’ve never been this tired in your life.
worrying about cell phone bills, car insurance, food, budgeting, grades, social life, etc all the time.
in that same vein, finding new tv shows to watch. (and sometimes they’re disney shows and that’s okay.) (meaning i discovered boy meets world while i was in college and honestly it helped me get through it.)
junk food. so much junk food.
developing weird ways to learn the stuff you’ve gotta learn. (need to learn the kings and queens of england for your western civ class? say no more.)
watching your friends get into relationships??? and get engaged??? and get married??? AND HAVE BABIES???
constantly wondering what the crap you’re doing with your life because of the above. (“oh, that’s right. i’m getting an education. which will help me… how?”)
meeting new friends.
saying goodbye to old friends.
setting aside hours a day to psych yourself up for something because adulting is hard.
sobbing in your car because you failed tests.
celebrating with junk food and movies because you passed tests.
being scared about moving on because sweet buttered crumpets, you’ll have to really adult and enter *gulp* The Real World.
moving on, despite whatever happens, because this is your education and DANG IT, you’ll get it done.
i only have a few weeks of school left. i’m trying to live in these moments – to really relish them, despite the mixed feelings they bring – because i’m such a schoolaholic that i know i’m going to miss them.
today’s my baby sister’s birthday. she’s four. i distinctly remember living at a friend’s house while her adoption paperwork was going through, discovering pinterest while trying to figure out this college thing.
i’m totally scared at the prospect of a school-free life. i’m obviously still going to learn (hello, french lessons), but it’ll be different.
more than that, though, i’m excited. i’ll have a more flexible schedule, i’ll be able to live without a major stress-inducer in my life, i’ll have more writing time, i’ll be able to get a job without worrying about having enough school time…
saying goodbye is always hard. but saying hello is such a bright, optimistic new opportunity, and i’m totally ready to see what i’ll greet in the next few months.